Missing you....

My last day of work at ING was kind of sad....I never like leaving people. I remember when I left my friend's place in KK, I almost cried but I held back my tears. This evening(30/01/2008), as I was getting ready to leave the office for the last time, I felt kind of sad. At one time, I felt so stressed up with work that I felt I hated working there but at the moment I was leaving, I really didn't feel like going.

I left the office with this colleague of mine who often followed me back. As usual, we talked a lot in the car on the way home...I normally dropped him at the LRT station and as we approached the Taman Bahagia station where I normally drop him, I really felt sad cos I felt I was losing a good friend who was often there when I was down. I liked talking to him in the car after work and I am certainly going to miss that a lot. As I saw him walk into the station, I felt very sad as this was going to be the last time I send him to the station.

After leaving the station, I went to pack some dinner home. As I was buying dinner, tears started rolling down my eyes and I just couldn't control it...I really feel the missing feeling and it really made me want to cry. Anyway, I cried on the way home. When I reached home, my tears had dried but just now as I lay down to sleep, I started thinking about it again. I didn't really feel like thinking about it but as I lay there thinking, I started crying terribly again...

I understand the feeling of fear which is to protect us from harm but I really don't understand why we need to miss people.....Do we miss others because we find it difficult moving on ? I know I missed my mum terribly when I first left my hometown to further my studies..