Missing you....

My last day of work at ING was kind of sad....I never like leaving people. I remember when I left my friend's place in KK, I almost cried but I held back my tears. This evening(30/01/2008), as I was getting ready to leave the office for the last time, I felt kind of sad. At one time, I felt so stressed up with work that I felt I hated working there but at the moment I was leaving, I really didn't feel like going.

I left the office with this colleague of mine who often followed me back. As usual, we talked a lot in the car on the way home...I normally dropped him at the LRT station and as we approached the Taman Bahagia station where I normally drop him, I really felt sad cos I felt I was losing a good friend who was often there when I was down. I liked talking to him in the car after work and I am certainly going to miss that a lot. As I saw him walk into the station, I felt very sad as this was going to be the last time I send him to the station.

After leaving the station, I went to pack some dinner home. As I was buying dinner, tears started rolling down my eyes and I just couldn't control it...I really feel the missing feeling and it really made me want to cry. Anyway, I cried on the way home. When I reached home, my tears had dried but just now as I lay down to sleep, I started thinking about it again. I didn't really feel like thinking about it but as I lay there thinking, I started crying terribly again...

I understand the feeling of fear which is to protect us from harm but I really don't understand why we need to miss people.....Do we miss others because we find it difficult moving on ? I know I missed my mum terribly when I first left my hometown to further my studies..

Its the size of me and not the size of my problems.

I learnt from T. Harv Eker's cd that it is really the size of me that matters. If I am big enough to take on the problem, the problem can be solved. On the other hand, if I felt the problem was too large for me to handle, the actual problem was in me and not the problem for someone else who looked at it from a different point of view might find that it is no problem at all...



I recall an ex-colleague of mine who always said that the work was easy...There I was being small and feeling it was a tough challenge. I made my life difficult feeling that the problem was tough as that became my reality. Whatever I got, I perceived it as a problem and it made life more difficult for me....I guess a lot of us go through life that way and that is why we stay mediocre.



From putting into practise what I've learnt, I am beginning to see life differently...Whenever I find myself thinking of a problem as too difficult, I remind myself of the tiny me who looked at problems as overwhelming. I'm sure if we all continued challenging ourselves this way, we would overcome many great problems in life and look back from where we came from with a smile.

How much do you love yourself ??

I've learnt something important from listening to the cds I got from the Millionaire Mind Intensive seminar. This is one thing each and everyone should learn because most people kind of learn the opposite growing in this 'negative' world we live in, today.

What we never learnt is for one to not 'beat' himself/herself up for making mistakes. We normally feel terrible when we make mistakes and start to hate ourselves or punish ourselves. And due to doing all these, we do not make the situation better but instead make things worse. So, what we should do when we make mistakes is actually keep loving ourselves and try not to go too low. This is so that in feeling that we are 'ok', we tend to be able to think more clearly and with this, we can correct the situation more easily than if we were feeling down and out. Although these things seem trivial and may be something we already know, it is most useful to be able to practise this when we are hit with failure. Only at that time, we can move forward by putting into practise this principle...

2007 - Learning to inspire myself

2007 came and went rather quickly. Before I knew it, I was already in the first day of January 2008. Let me recall some of the memorable events of 2007...

I went for Strategies for Financial Freedom on the 13-15 July by Dr Clemen Chiang. Looking back, what he taught was pretty basic but I guess this is because he was catering to people from different backgrounds. Some of which have never traded stocks in their life. Anyway, what he taught was enough for one to get started with trading options and he even included how to manage your money which is the most important element in investing.

From this point on, a friend of mine started introducing me books and cds on how to improve myself through acquiring more knowledge. He let me copy Lead the field by Earl Nightingale, The Secret by Rhonda Bryne(this was the video). Later, he introduced me The 7 habits of highly effective people by Stephen R. Covey. I have been listening to all these and I would not say that it doesn't help but somehow, if you don't really put into practise what you learn, you would not benefit much from it.

One day, this friend of mine lent me a book titled Secrets of The Millionaire Mind by T. Harv Eker. From reading this book, I went on to attending the 3 day Millionaire Mind Intensive seminar in Singapore and have since been practising improving my mindset so that I manage it to not beat me up :)

Anyway, other things that happened during the year include me cutting my hair short in December as I had resigned from the company which allowed guys having long hair...I also changed my car from a mid sized one(Proton Waja) to a Perodua Viva(an A segment car). I did this after reading T. Harv's book. Not that the book preaches this but I wanted to simplify my life to achieve financial freedom in a shorter period. Well, I'd probably get a larger car later when my finances improve. Would be great to be able to achieve putting away for good(yes, you can never use this money to buy anything) 10% of my income to my Financial Freedom Account.

I plan to achieve much more in 2008 so here I come :)